It's a lovely day.

I woke up this morning and opened my eyes. My blinds were shut, but the sky was so blue, it was making its way between the slats. I could not help but smile. For some reason, today was the day. I feel better today than I have felt in over a year.

And here are the things I'm realizing, through discussions with friends, counselors, etc...

The only thing that I know truly exists is me...well. Philosophically speaking. Remember when you were young and you had that fear that maybe nothing was real? Maybe it was all a screen you were watching? Maybe you were the only conscious being in existence? This fear, which is also Rene Descartes Malicious Demon theory, is common among children.

That's not the point. The point is to kind of take that idea and run with it. Be a little selfish. Worry about yourself. You can't control the actions or opinions of anyone around you, so take control of what you have the ability to control...yourself. Your decisions. Your ideals.

Just be happy with you and who you are. Surround yourself with people whom you don't have to worry about judging you. You are who you are and fuck what anyone else thinks.

(easiersaidthandone,no?)

Hiatus over...I think. Consistency is my goal.

Just downloaded "Big Shiny 90's." Listening to awesome songs I'd forgotten, such as In the Meantime (Spacehog) and Volcano Girls (Veruca Salt). Remember What's the Frequency Kenneth (REM)?

Ranting about nostalgia...

So anyway. I realize this last hiatus was far longer than those in the past, but the weather is nice and I feel my optimism/good mood is slowly returning. The cold weather has that nasty little ability to kill happiness and motivation. With the weather finally changing and the earth slowly returning back to life, it is hard not to crack a smile. Waking up to chirping birds is just about the best thing that can happen in a given day.

But let's talk about the real issue.

Spring fever.

It's settin' in.

Spring fever + (Aries Sun/Scorpio Moon)

The flowers are blooming.

[andsoisyourlibido]